A Day for Trying, A day for Doing

I awoke this morning at 4:00 am from a wonderful dream that I can now barely remember. After two unsuccessful attempts to go back to sleep and watching a little TV. I decided to get up.

I’ve been thinking about a kid I work with; among other things he has some learning disabilities. How difficult it must be for him. At 14 he’s tired of trying. I suspect it’s been a gradual process one seeming failure after another. I sometimes feel like I’m just one more person pushing and pushing him. What I’d really like to do is wrap my arms around him, tell him it will be OK, tell him that I love him and that God loves him more than he can imagine. I want to have some fun with him and laugh with him, but always it seems like I push him to do school work.

I want him to succeed, but at what price and by who’s definition. And how shall I encourage him to go on when I give up so easily sometime. Look at the last time I posted to this blog, when was the last time I really worked on any of several project I have in the works, and lets not even mention the myriad of things around the house I’ve let go, or how I haven’t exercised in who knows how long. It all seems to pile up and become overwhelming. What do you do when, where do you find the energy, what will you leave undone. Sometimes I just get tired of trying, but at least for today I will try. I will more than try, I will do! God help us!